“Me l’aspettavo.” Translation from Italian: ”I expected it to happen” -Pino Puglisi, Italian Priest
The weather today was just absolutely miserable. It was about low to mid 40 degrees Fahrenheit (5-8C), cloudy and then it started to rain in the afternoon. I went to a hockey game but unfortunately, walking there, I was stuck in a rough patch of heavy rain. My shoes got soaked as I walked into the hockey rink, so I was then in a hockey rink for the next 2 or 3 hours with wet shoes and socks. This wasn’t so bad during the match, but after was when I left, it was even colder, dark and raining. I stepped in a few puddles but luckily it was only a short 4 or 5 stations between the hockey rink and where I am staying. I am better now though, I got home, warmed up my feet in hot water, changed clothes and my shoes are now drying.
One thing I noticed was that the Olympia-Eissportzentrum, or Olympia Eishalle as it is also called, was maybe one of the smallest hockey venues that I have ever been to. It was pretty full not sold out but there were only a few empty/lightly populated places and there were less than 4,000 people in attendance. It was something that was not suspecting. When I was in Berlin, their stadium was not full, much like it was in Munich, but it was 2 levels and there were somewhere around 12,000 people in attendance.
Today I played Dungeons and Dragons (5th Edition) with my friends over Discord. I never thought I would have been as much fun as it is but we have now been playing (usually) every other Saturday for a few months and it has been a blast. Today, sadly we had our first character in our party die after he basically sacrificed himself for his stupid noble “putting everyone before himself” desire. He was our tank but hopefully we will get along well without that character.
It is so easy to have expectations unrealistic expectations, either by believing in something too strongly without having someone or something bringing the reality to you or by being overly cynical. Being incredibly cynical helps when things go wrong but it is a kind of bad personality trait when it comes to interacting with people. No one, usually, enjoys someone they see as a “downer” who is always pointing out issues but in hindsight, if you have a cynical person expecting the worst and something bad happens, it is something that people are usually thankful for. In my life recently, the last few months, I have been quite cynical about the majority of things but unfortunately, there are a few things I will only allow myself to things exceedingly positively about and I will blatantly ignore all signs of possible trouble ahead. I know this is happening but I still refuse. I don’t want to imagine what could happen with the negative outcome so I choose to, at least for now, pretend that it cannot end poorly for me… only time will tell how foolish this outlook is for me.